I hate the springtime rain.
It lacquers everything in a shivering overcoat of mind-boggling bleariness. For all the stereotypes of a joyful awakening, the rains of spring bring in the absence of everything - colour, life, rage, lust or insanity - everything is flushed away into the more-or-less clogged and equally malodorous drains.
I hate it, blazingly, with all the blackness of a long-abandoned well, with a vicious vehemence opposed to the usual brightness I welcome the warmer seasons with. As far as the palette of my feelings goes, I don't know what gray is - I never have - and to have it consistently coating all my visible world, leaking into every crack and pore and slithering round the edges of earshot is downright maddening.
I hate the springtime rain, for it drowns me in foggy and fatigued drowsiness. My veins run coarse with silent storms; a mind too damp and a body too limp to conceive them and birth them into the world are a confinement more constrictive than any creaking crate or casket. To feel the shadow of involuntary sleep looming over me in the midst of day is a nightmare of an entirely unbearable kind.
I hate the springtime rain because it drenches me in pain - a dull claw at the back of my brain, scratching along cramped muscles and a pulsating head which radiates heat. The space in my skull seems insufficient, and so the eyes water and bulge menacingly out, or otherwise contract and sting a protest against anything brighter than a desk lamp's bulb.
I hate the springtime rain because it never shuts up. Like a senile drunkard, it rambles incoherently in a self-important monotone, spewing forth a torrent of trivialities. Its hurried murmur in voices of lead and ash and heat-dried concrete is a static background noise, drowning out any attempt at a melody. It only amplifies the dreariness which so gleefully reminds me that winter is, still, right beyond the doorstep.
It lacquers everything in a shivering overcoat of mind-boggling bleariness. For all the stereotypes of a joyful awakening, the rains of spring bring in the absence of everything - colour, life, rage, lust or insanity - everything is flushed away into the more-or-less clogged and equally malodorous drains.
I hate it, blazingly, with all the blackness of a long-abandoned well, with a vicious vehemence opposed to the usual brightness I welcome the warmer seasons with. As far as the palette of my feelings goes, I don't know what gray is - I never have - and to have it consistently coating all my visible world, leaking into every crack and pore and slithering round the edges of earshot is downright maddening.
I hate the springtime rain, for it drowns me in foggy and fatigued drowsiness. My veins run coarse with silent storms; a mind too damp and a body too limp to conceive them and birth them into the world are a confinement more constrictive than any creaking crate or casket. To feel the shadow of involuntary sleep looming over me in the midst of day is a nightmare of an entirely unbearable kind.
I hate the springtime rain because it drenches me in pain - a dull claw at the back of my brain, scratching along cramped muscles and a pulsating head which radiates heat. The space in my skull seems insufficient, and so the eyes water and bulge menacingly out, or otherwise contract and sting a protest against anything brighter than a desk lamp's bulb.
I hate the springtime rain because it never shuts up. Like a senile drunkard, it rambles incoherently in a self-important monotone, spewing forth a torrent of trivialities. Its hurried murmur in voices of lead and ash and heat-dried concrete is a static background noise, drowning out any attempt at a melody. It only amplifies the dreariness which so gleefully reminds me that winter is, still, right beyond the doorstep.